Have you ever wondered...

Have you ever wondered
what will happen if you didn't
push him away when he
tried to break the walls
built around you?

Have you ever wondered
what will happen next
if you didn't ignore him
when he said
his first  'Hello'?

Have you ever wondered
what will happen if
you didn't choose to bury
your memories with him
and just cherish them instead?

Have you ever wondered
what will happen if
you were just strong enough
to believe him when
he said he loved you?

Have you ever wondered
what will happen if
you gave yourself a chance
to speak out what was
inside your head?

Have you ever wondered
if he wondered
what those timid smiles
and sudden glances
ever mean to you?
Was it love? or was it loving?

Have you ever wondered
what will happen if
you just took 20 seconds
of insane courage to
to tell him that
you loved him too?


Have you ever wondered? Because I did. I always do.

"Be careful what you love, and how you love," She said while looking into the vastness of the sky. It was a peaceful night and they were alone. Happy. Relaxed. Contented. Except for him, he had lots of questions, and he didn't know how to ask. Or where to start.

"You have to love in all the wrong ways." Now she's looking at him, right into the eyes of the man she loves. They were beautiful and radiant. Then she remembered, those were the same eyes she first fell in love with.

But he was not looking at her. His goddamn eyes were locked into the depth of the ocean and he enjoyed every roaring movement of the waves. 

"And you have to do it in all the right ways." Now he's looking at her, confused. He's gotten all the courage now to tell her of the questions he was dying to ask, all this time.

"How is that even possible? To love you in all the wrong ways but in all the right ways? Can't I just love you, in easiest way possible, regardless if it's right or wrong? After all, it's not the way that we love that keeps us, but how hard we try to keep that love alive." The girl flashed a smile. They were getting into it. This was the thing she wanted him to know, the very thing she protected for years and years of truthful love and togetherness. Yet, it was just now that she got the right moment. 

"It is. And you just did. You just loved me in all the wrong ways yet in the right ways. When I was talking to you and you weren't looking at me. But you heard me, you we're listening to me, right? What you have shown me is completely the opposite of what you're actually doing. And it does not pain me. It does not hurt me because I know, I know of all your intentions. And it makes me feel right. You know, love is not everything you see on the surface, but all the way through."

The boy's eyes flickered. And in that night, with all the stars glimmering above them, all his questions were answered. All at once. 

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